i moved to carroll gardens today. with jack.
when i first moved to new york, i went straight to bushwick. bushwick was a good place for a newcomer like me. fun, young, and a million different comedy open mics to go to.
have i grown out of it? not sure. im 25 now, which is very young. i have never felt like i am old, even when i tell someone younger than me that i am 25 and they go, "oh wow!" every year i get older, the younger i feel. because when i was 7, being 25 meant i was married, i carried a briefcase, and i had solved all of the life's mysteries, and boy was i wrong! i'm not married, i do not own a briefcase, (but i will admit i have solved all of life's mysteries)
i have never felt fully secure, calm, and at home in a place i have lived. with my amazing decorating skills and jack's kindness, i think this place could be the first time i feel that.
also by the way it is ok to be vulnerable on blogs that's why we have them
i was in someone's tiktok and many people commented "that girl gives aubrey plaza vibes" and then i did a roast battle recently and she compared me to aubrey plaza... how do we feel about this? i know exactly why they are saying this (i think i speak in monotone/no facial expressions often) and i literally remember the moment in my life when this changed it's so weird. this is so embarrassing whatever. i used to smile a lot with everything i said so the person knew i was being nice and then one day my face literally hurt like my face was sore and i was like oh my god this is annoying and not worth going through all this im just gonna relax and then i just started speaking normally (in my opinion) and plainly. anyway i only think i do this when im around new people or im nervous or on stage which is good.
i say this every year but i want to get into football. how cool would that be to get happiness just from a team winning? i'll update you guys on what team i pick/if they are doing well. right now i'm thinking the jets/bills/49ers... i like all of those. teams i will never like: patriots/rams/saints/cardinals
where do the giants fall? i have no idea about them.
it would be cool to follow through with an idea. (this blog is making me very happy)
it IS okay to be vulnerable on the blog and don't let anybody tell u otherwise!! I am not a football fan but watched 3 mins with my sister the other day and it was pretty exciting, a team was losing but then they got a touchdown and were losing by less, but then they lost. :( I would suggest picking whatever team of the ones you like is already doing the best so you at least pick a team that does good.
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